An Alternative Hypothesis by Prospero2013

There was of course
an alternative hypothesis.
There was never a higher consciousness.
In whatever way
and in whatever quantity
the substance was poured
it would always solidify
into solid dead matter
dancing in random patterns
and forming the vast structure
which we had come to know
as the world.

There was nothing special
in the simple basic ingredients
or the very complex structure
which they formed.
All of creation
was random musical variations
on a simple chaotic structure.
Formed out of nothing
leading to nothing.

In time this epistemological position
would become universally objective (for me.)
Since all perception of meaning
was necessarily an illusion
psychosis was necessarily as equally valid a state
as clear waking consciousness.
There was no clear objective basis for any subjectivity.

Even if we perceived
that the substance had answered our questions
the questions themselves
had no objective basis
to begin with.

Regardless of what we remembered
there was never any contact
with strange entities or beings.
These beings were projections
just like everything else
we had ever perceived.

A hypothesis is only an educated guess.
I was able to break the riddle.
I was able to see the form.
I was able to question the beings.
On these positive subjective assertions,
I cannot base any knowledge,
only an alternative hypothesis
that dances randomly through space
as part of the substance
of which I am made of.

As an effect of repeated interactions
I came to understand the subjectivity
of my claims to knowledge.
And yet I still feel the hunger.
Even if I no longer believe it can possibly exist.