"Stillbloom" by NORPHLET

Lo, I've been
Waging war inside my head
Since I was old enough to stand
But not yet old enough to sit
Now I can't go on
Another song about lament
Without acknowledging the fact
I don't remember half of it

But I cannot forget
The way it made me feel
And doesn't make me feel
A life under a veil
No matter what I do
In ire by flame or flood
You find your way straight back
You still bloom

I await the day with baited breath
To rue the moment you reveal yourself once more
For there are only so many places
Capable of keeping something like that
Under lock and key or Latin phrases
Spells designed as mantras that I tell myself
Something like "if I keep myself in your good graces"
But that ain't ever worked

For one could never fill
A void so cavernous
Where sun it doesn't rise
For moon it doesn't set
Just hangs there in the sky
As black as black can get
And dreams they don't bear fruit
But still bloom

You still bloom
In the meadow of my mind
You still bloom

What's made it's home inside of me
That looms so large yet can't be seen
What's made it's home inside of me
That looms so large