Alone by Hayny

iz my edgy emo synth rap, hope you enjoy!
Fun fact: I wrote 1st verse in 2018, 2nd verse in 2019, and finished the beat in 2020

Lyrics:

A light before my eyes, a sound in my ears
sensations coming back, with a hint of fear
A mirror next to me, I try to take a peek
try to set the focus, try to make it clear

but I'm met with a mess, a blur, a haze
blinded by emotions, can't make out my face
I fumble in the dark, distraught and dazed
I'm a stranger to this world and my home is space

So of course I feel weird when I get to witness
beauty and perfection in this land of weakness
my own demons tremble like they can't deal with this
What is this sweetness? I've been rendered speechless

Despite the darkness, there's an angel here
I struggled with this but I'll make it perfect
I'll defy the odds and shape my own mind
I'll destroy the evil and make my soul shine...

I try to take away... take myself away
I try to take everything I can and run away...

After many nights I feel the pain again
Of too many fights, it's turning me insane
New leaf, wilted, as october leaves
The synth plays higher, I feel my heart give in

Tell me what to do now that the shadow's back
How can I go on as I sabotage this
Carnage that's my life, and I've become this bad
...I've found myself back.

Everything's the same, but it still keeps on changing
Every time, I move, but I keep regressing
What could I do now that I am hopeless trying ?
What should I do now that my hope is dying ?

God won't help me now, he's dead and buried
as the god of all gods remains unworried
Spent the past decade crying and weeping, I'll
Spend the next decade chasing the fleeting

You can only get good if you lose yourself
As if only you knew how to cope with this
And I've cried for too long when I found you here
Got to find a way out of this awful place

And I love you way more than I can say
Come with me take my hand and we'll go away
I'll make sure to embrace you in the night
Try reverting the past, make our future bright