on my side of the chemung by Lil Watermark

I stopped believing in an after-life
Because i lose my angel every week
Weak, so dysfunctional, so dysfunctionally
The weekend's here and i Just feel so weak

So show me movies
I won't watch em
I'll just ignore all your problems
Because I'm like that
I'll just squander it all
So show me movies
I won't watch em
I'll just sit here with your problems
It's comfy on the floor
I'll just squander it all

Yeah it makes me feel like shit
I'm missing out on all of it
And i only know to frown
It's like my life is all done now
River flows two ways
Changes up and down
I don't think, I am a river
Cuz i never ever, ever was proud
I'll never make a splash
I'll end on my ass
I'll never make a splash
I'm just a blade of grass

And the Chemung
Swallows me whole
The Susquehanna
Drains me

Tell me is it better on your side
Or is it more of the same
More of the same old life?

So show me movies
I won't watch them
All these issues that I dwell on
It's all tragic, I can't love you at all
So show me movies
I can't follow
All I know to do is swallow
Every street I pace is laced
Shaming tears in my wake