ghost (ruff azz demo) by genevieve

a sad ass song i wrote about 2 years ago that i forgot about and found on my laptop --

i keep stayin up too late
im kinda tired and i dont feel so great
where's the boy who lived in your skin?
i think somebody came and took him
please bring him back cause i miss him
maybe he was never there to begin with
he was a ghost that i imagined
my brain made up to cope with my habits
guilt weighs me down more than anything
songs of remorse pour out of my seams
wish i could kiss you one last time
even if im never yours and youre never mine
i was hell bent on destroying what we had
and im terrified youll never want me back
i always knew that you would leave
so i pushed until you never wanted to see me
if i knew that was the last time i'd see you
i never wouldve yelled at you
i think somebody died that day
i think it was both of us in a way
i hope she treats you the right way
maybe she can make you stay
but i hope it's hard kissin her
i hope that in your mouth the taste of mine still burns
you can never love me the same again
and ill never get to sleep in your bed
i want this all to be over
but im a ghost too and you want to be able
to hold her