Disappoint by Duskbloom

Lyrics:

Why do I always fumble the nest?
Stumbling, never speak from my chest
Always land just short of my best
And then the self-hate comes I’m unable to rest
I
Wish that I could be a little less critical
Not of you but of me it’s so typical
On my best, on my worst of days
I never shine self-love, only traps and mazes
It’s amazing, the way that my mind flips out
Filling up, bit by bit, drip by drip with doubt
It’s so sad, isn’t it? How it all comes out
There’s no control, no composure, only threats and poses
And I’m hoping that maybe if I speak it out
That you’ll hear, that you’ll see, that you’ll feel me now
Take my heart, if you’ll hold it
Love, don’t control it
Do anything I can not to disappoint you

Do anything I can I do anything
Do anything I can I do anything
Do anything I can I do anything
Anything I can not to disappoint you

I do anything I can not to disappoint (Point)
I do anything I can not to disappoint (Point)
I do anything I can not to disappoint
Anything I can not to disappoint you

Send my voice to the void of space
Where, so devoid, I avoid the taste
Of anything bitter, of anything wrong
Any imperfect thing that I’ve done
Every choice, every mess I make
Every spill, every bread I refuse to break
Can’t keep on hiding
I’m ready, I’m not
Slowly unravel
Loosen the knot

And then and only then
Then and only then
Can I thread the eye
Can I start to gently understand why

In a sea of smooth sailing
Been sinking
been flailing
and failing to find my reason, my why
Sink myself in to a world of my creation
Of rest
Of patience
I dive in
And I waiting
Is light, is her
A truth that’s worth tasting
It’s only bitter when it’s not of your making

I do anything I can not to disappoint (Point)
I do anything I can not to disappoint (Point)
I do anything I can not to disappoint
Anything I can not to disappoint you
I do anything I can not to disappoint (Point)
I do anything I can not to disappoint (Point)
I do anything I can not to disappoint
Anything I can not to disappoint you

Oh sacred love
There is a rhythm
That moves beyond
and underneath
Goes where it will
To where it wants
Surrender still
and find your peace