Better Off Worse (ft. フラワ) by CircusP

MV: https://youtu.be/nrsr_-QXCv4

|| LYRICS ||
it's 4 AM on a school night
100 calorie life
Making sure the set ups just right, just right

Burning every bridge that I grace
Making sure that I feel pain
Getting in a bitter headspace

At this pace I'm ready to go
I know your craving for a brand new low
I'm ready to go
To halt my growth and put on a show

To you I'm better-better-better off worse
You listen when it hurts too much to bear
It's like I'm better-better-better off worse
My happiness is never cared for

Over-analyze my broken heart
As the tempo kicks up a notch

'Cause I'm better-better-better off worse
You only ever like me in this spiral of despair

No, we must go back
Go back to 'my' roots if you could call it that
Go back to the hurdles that I've already passed
Reliving them over and over
And when there is closure
We gotta go bolder

I'm ready to go
Because I know my woes are a product to be consumed
Now you're running low
I know you want something new

But what else can I do?
Oh, what else can I do?

To you I'm better-better-better off worse
You listen when it hurts too much to bear
It's like I'm better-better-better off worse
My happiness is never cared for

Over-analyze my broken heart
As the tempo kicks up a notch

'Cause I'm better-better-better off worse
You only ever like me in this spiral of despair

Better off recovering than recovered
Better off hurting than to have hurt
Better off in the dark than in the light
Better off near death than be alright

Bleed out for audience approval
Tragic, but perfectly on schedule
You think by now that we would have learned
Behind every piece of art is a human to be heard

But I'm still better-better-better off worse
You listen when it hurts too much to bear
It's like I'm better-better-better off worse
Rejecting change to keep you there

Because I'm better-better-better off worse
You listen when I'm running out of time
It's like I'm better-better-better off worse
The mourning of one still alive

I oversimplify the tears I cry
While you tear them down line by line

'Cause I'm better-better-better off worse
You only ever like me-
Only ever like me when I wanna die