This Poison Mind by Silent St. j

Lyrics

All my hurting
With little guidance.
What I’ve been searching for
Left in the silence

And I’m left wasting
In my own defiance.
I’d called it patience
But I’d be lying
I’d be lying

All I got is
This poison mind.
All my love is
rotting inside.

It's not worth sharing
It wouldn’t be kind.
I've been comparing
I fall behind
I fall behind them
I've fallen behind
I fall behind

I’ve been ashamed of
What I created.
Stuck in this state of
Self deprecation

A juvenile
When I was first tainted.
All of my trials
They can’t hold my weight and
I'm starting to cave in
I’m starting to break
I’m starting to break

Oh no father
I’ve been fighting
Oh no Mother
I’ve been crying
I’m sorry brothers
Cause I've been hiding
Forgotten sister
I wasn’t trying