de / sex (ed) by s.b.h. published on 2018-04-04T08:17:03Z This poem appeared in Reservoir Lit, Issue 4. http://reservoirlit.com/haydock Transcript: de / sex (ed) with him you are a bridge in a bathtub you are exposed genitals you are plump and suffocated in a free-binned shirt you are a black towel cut into strips thank you for the warm tea and bath he says you are an anus poked twice without consent you are too afraid to stay and be raped you are climbing out of the bathtub you are shuddering on your bed you will forfeit this transitional housing apartment far too soon a policeman accosts you at a downtown bus stop he demands records from the sexual health clinic on some level i understand the desire to kill yr rapist smash of concrete against a face enough times that you eviscerated your parents i wish you were dead! i hate you! iI want to kill you! enough temptation to allow my fingers the breathing room of their necks so many agatha christie mysteries with paint-splattered murders or heads held down bobbing for apples the thrill of a quartered and drawn crucifixion the squeal of flesh coerced against serrated cogs on some level i. understand this fantasy of closure, anticlimactic the edge you call psychosis sometimes i want to slip you a machete i know you would always cower you call this your salvation Genre Poetry