I am back once more with another fresh new jammy..
I was intending to switch things up, and make something a little bit more upbeat this time.
But after the recent events, in Boston, and just opening an eye to more global events..
I felt that the tone and subject of this song would reflect that sort of wind, that seems to be blowing.
Many thanks to @https://soundcloud.com/sicknessmp for the sound. Such a fine instrumental!
This instrumental was one of the first ones he showed me, very long ago..
It was a bit shorter than this version too- He ended up losing the file due to harddrive issues.
But I still have mine!
I had to cut the ends and re-loop to make the song a proper length, to sing the hook the way I wanted.
Looking at the content of the song, it's theme is a personal one.
In short, one could say it's about trying to be right, and correct - in hard times despite.
Remaining true to the self, and those that you love. And in that way, It reflects my views on the world. With recent 'terror' attacks around the globe.
I feel that something is wrong if you're not stopping to ask yourself which side of the field you stand on..
To those that would do harm, I feel they would only do so- because they do not know how to use words..
We need not betray one another.
The first verse talks about being unsure of why certain things happen, why they may be hard to deal with..
And ultimate coming to the conclusion, that It seems that I may be feeling pain for a reason..
A good reason. So I feel must explore that, to learn about myself even more, taking things to the next level.
There is also bit of ambivalance to the 2nd verse, feelings that contrast.
Questioning why it is I even do the things I do- Other than the feeling I feel, that urges me to do it.
There are no real answers, so to speak, things only reveal themselves very slowly.. why it is that I want to make tunes, and write.
It ends with bits about connection, old and new, do strong connections in life happen for a reason?
And If so, do those bonds become intertwined akin to destiny?
Really appreciate you taking the time to listen to the jam, it took me a few weeks of no contact and struggle to complete it.
I am glad it's done.
Feed back always welcome.
-------------------------------------- LYRICS BELOW ---------------------------------------
I NEED TO SUFFER MORE,
INORDER TODISCOVER, WHAT FOR,
SO THE THE PAIN I EXPLORE, THROUGH SUBCONCIOUS THOUGHT,
TO LATE NIGHT TALKS, I TELL MYSELF- 'YES, I CAN ENDURE,'
THIS IS WHAT IT IS TO BE MATURE,
VERY LITTLE FOR SUPPORT, EVERY LESSON OBSCURE,
IN WORLD WHERE ONE IS TAUGHT,
THAT THE WAY TO PROGRESS,
AND THE WAY TO PROCURE, IS TO ENSURE THAT YOU ONLY OUT FOR GETTING YOURS.
THAT'S HOW IT SEEM, HARD TO BELIEVE,
WHAT HAS BECOME & TRANSFORMED, OF THEE AMERICAN DREAM- FOREVER LOST.
I HOPE THAT I AM WRONG, AS IT SEEMS,
I'M GONE IN DREAMS AND IN MY IMAGINATION
MY INTERPRETATION OF THEWAYEVENTS HAVE CULMINATED,
IT SEEMS I'LL NEVER MAKE IT, SOMEDAYS FEELING FAITHLESS,
BUT I KNOW, I'LL BE OKAY
IF I STAY PATIENT
JUST STAY PATIENT..... UPON DE DAILY BASIS,
HOOK ------- X 1
THEY SAY, TO PERSUE-
TO SEEK, VIRTUE,
EVEN ON DAYS,
WHEN IT HURTS YOU, TO STAY TRUE-DON'T BETRAY--
& FEEL IT DEEP,
THAT I NEED TO LET FLOW THE INK
- LET SOOTH & SOAK,
JUST LET IT GO - FROM THE PIT OF MY STOMACH
THERE MUST EXIST A HOLE.
THAT I NEED TO FILL - FUELLING FIRES, LIKE A COAL, SHOVELED, DUG - HEAVED & HO'D
ONCE CONNECTED, DO YOU REALLY EVER LET GO?
ONCE ROOTS IS SEWN,
BUT, NO LONGER WHOLE-
DOES IT STUNT THE GROWTH?
I'D LIKE TO THINK NOT,
AND I'D LIKE TO THINK SO-
BECAUSE SOMEDAYS I DONT', YET SOME I FEEL IT IN MY BONES,
THAT I WANT TO KEEP CLOSE &
I WANT TO TO CALL HOME,
WHERE THE NECK BE EXPOSED, TO NESTLE & FEEL THE WARMTH,
CUZ I'VE BEEN FEELING -- YO..
CUZ I'VE BEEN FEELING COLD.
HOOK SECTION REPEATED 4X
You're cool if you're reading this.
- Worldly Styles