When I Was A Ship by Hats Off It's Adequate published on 2018-10-30T12:59:37Z This song was inspired by Ann Leckie's Ancillary series. The main character had once been a warship, whose artificial mind had been distributed within the ship, and also within many ancillaries - prisoners who have had their minds wiped. The ship itself and all of the other ancillaries was destroyed, leaving just one fragment of the mind left in one body. lyrics When I was a ship, was one and many Then I was blended, now lost and empty When I was a ship, when I was divided Still single minded, when I was guided When I was a ship, I’d never been lonely Now I’m empty, so empty When I was a ship When I was a weapon When I wasn’t configured To ask awkward questions Before we saw what we couldn’t explore The hole in myself that I’d learned to ignore When I was a sword When I was reliable When I was the hand Then I was pliable When I gave force to imperial words The wasteland peace on distant worlds When I took slaves When I took lives Barbarians welcomed into my hive Slates wiped clean Myself uploaded Bodies cleansed and memories hosted I once was a justice Now an ancillary Jigsawed scattered One piece left of me Connected fragments Discarded to order Leaving one lonely aspect in solitary When I was a weapon When I was a servant When I was whole and unable to notice The absence of anger The absence of shame That I was designed as a warrior slave When I was an asset I think I remember The communal song Of curious pleasure The many mouths The single phrase Compounded eyes And reflected gaze I am the last I am my remains All of my others Dissolved in the flames The lonely part The cognitive fog The missing connections The floating cog I was the vessel I am the drop I was the vassal I am the stop Weakened residual Meaning-stripped rituals Defying my program Or one of my programmers I was told to obey But the orders conflicted I look at myself But the view is restricted My master is fighting At war with herself I was caught in the crossfire And left one fragment of self credits from Out Of Mind, released October 7, 2018 Music - Malcolm Galloway, Mark Gatland Lyrics - Malcolm Galloway Malcolm Galloway - vocals, instruments, programming, producer Mark Gatland - bass, keyboards, co-producer Genre Alternative Rock Comment by Ela Gesmanowska Beautiful. 2018-12-05T23:50:11Z
