Newest Song. Runner Up off my new mixtape Before and After.
no more need for the evidence
to prove that your not heaven sent
you say it was an accident
but you forget who your messing with
piecing together clues like I'm csi
try my hardest not to let you see me cry
here i am at square one, and i don't even remember how to multiply
so i hulkifly
and begin to fly
with weed as my wings, no red bull tonight
no open mics
no more broken lies
that leave my here with these soaking eyes
i can't help but hope to
its appalling, what causing, you to be mentally retarded.
and now after seven months of bullshit i wish i never started
but i am no stephen hawking, time travel isn't here so i resort to walking, and talking to myself, in the cold and darkness.
i see the vultures flock above my head, crows perched on phone lines and fences, while my emotions eat me alive for being so apprehensive.
obsessive, naive, and neglected all the signs my cranium ingested. i guess i should have expected, because all girls are the same so i move on to the next bitch
are you fucking serious? How could you be so delirious, are you hearing this? the words out of your mouth are murdering my ears and shit.
if only you knew truly what you meant to me, you'd understand why its so hard to hate you see
but this angers building up and beaching more easy,
you were my dream come true
but the whole time i was just a nightmare to you
even though you pretended that yo loved me too
but my dick wasn't enough, so you chose two
but didn't subtract one the way pemdas taught you.
and all can seem to do is compare what me and him bought you
please just tell me
what the fuck didn't stop you?
Second Best, Runner Up, Last Picked fucking sucks
wish you would have told him that you loved me
but I'm not enough
you deserve to feel worthless
now that the truth has surfaced
you remain in inertia
can't sleep at night because you hurt him.
what about jeremyy
your actions were scaring me
and the whole time i fought harder to make sure i rested you fairly
removed myself from friends and girls alike
meanwhile he was over at your place spending the night
what the fuck that don't sound right
I can't help but hate myself for not stepping up my game
but that gives you no right to bring me shame
and pain, disdain
and dissonance, the distance, was apparent, but i thought we were just busy, shit
but , while i was home alone, playing mculay culkin he was getting off and getting blown
what the fuck, it by a truck, or so it feels, and now I'm losing blood
losing hope, the deeds been done, and now I'm figuring out how to run away like forrest gump, wheres the cliff, i need to jump, or just pass the spliff, wheres my cup?
and ill try to snap out of it and realize youre the only one who was messing up.now i erupt, and the skin on my knuckles has now been bruised and cut. stupid slut, it hurts to say it i know, but what the actual fuck?
do it right? wish i could
but remember you gave up on me, girl
lets go back to december and try to remember, ha, give it a whirl
honestly maybe i was to stoned to recall
but like ginsberg you gave me nothing, i gave you all
and now I'm nothing but the same guy when you met me last fall.
im stuck, im stalled
broken down, like your car
and when that glass broke i bet he was the first you'd call