I see you sitting at the end of the bar
It's a crowded cacophany of constant conversations symbiotic & simultaneous in sound,
You'd think this was another world filled with the unintelligible noises of a thousand stories.
But through this haze all I see is you: A simulated spotlight created by my unstable psyche casts
So all I notice is you.
You're a million and 1 things I love but I don't know a thing about you,
And maybe it's this gentleman's drink talking but I think its the truth....
At least I hope its not just me actin' a damn fool.
Because In my mind I repeat the audible replay of how I'd come up right next to you,
Accidentally bump into you and say, "Oh I'm sorry, I don't mean no disrespect but I think you are beautiful,"
You'd smile, maybe laugh, "oh, It's alright." All those, please and thank yous.
I'd ask what's your name, small talk, big dreams,
All kinds of strategic methods just to get you to tell me those magic numbers,
Maybe dinner so I can tell you you're more than just a hookup, maybe that's not what you're after.
Imagination runs wild, fairy tale story book told
and you're like me you know that's never how this shit unfolds.
More like, stutter, stutter, until I don't remember why I accidentally knocked over your drink for.
It's funny, fate. Failed attempts and I'll laugh it off with my friends
But every moment I'll wonder: were you the diamond in the rough?
Or just somebody with a mutual agreement of simply spending the night with?
It's the curiosity that kills the cat and rains the dog
Never knowing how to play those cards that were drawn.
It's a song and dance of thrilling, conflicting, do or die fucking-kill-me-now emotion.
And as much as we all hate it, its a necessary conundrum
Written in our what-it-means-to-be-human genome.
And so with this internal battle raging in my chest, I sigh and say, "Fuck it."
Drain the glass of whatever courage I have left,
empty my mind of what ideal outcome scenerios I expect.
Imperfect, Imprecise, just south of ideal, west of balance and grace.
Contact in a sea of sound.