Illwaukee, United States
Dwell in the present moment. As the moment becomes familiar, so does the wonder in all moments. Grateful for all of life, and all lives. This is basic goodness.
Father, Author, Speaker, Listener, Teacher, Student, Climber, Diver, Adventurer, Practitioner. Truly experiencing my path and loving it more with each step.
It's been a journey...
From the time I was 17 until I was was 24, I was a founding member of what went on to become the largest racist skinhead organization on Earth, a Reverend of a self-declared Racial Holy War, and lead singer of the hate-metal band Centurion, selling over 20,000 CDs of the most violent, hateful music ever made around the world. There is blood from innocent people on my hands. There are kids today who listen to my voice bellowing my lyrics as they're getting drunk and geared-up to go out and hurt people.
After 7 years of involvement, the combination of single parenthood and higher education finally instilled doubt in the racist dogma that I had vehemently promoted for so long. The process of change is ongoing. My evolution of thought occurred over the course of years, but there was a particular afternoon that marked my epiphany:
I arrived early to pick my daughter up from daycare. No one had noticed me, so I took in the moment, watching with teared eyes as my little girl played with the other kids. It struck me that they were all children; not black children, or white children, but the sons and daughters of mothers and fathers. I thought of all the people I had hurt, whether with my own hands or by lighting some psychopath's fuse. Those people had moms and dads and brothers and sisters. How did their loved ones feel when they saw this person who was so special to them battered and broken? How horrible would it be to have my daughter exposed to such violence in the slightest aspect? Love for my child thawed a dormant empathy for people that I was never aware of.
I have changed drastically over the years since then, becoming a person who seeks out and embraces the diversity of our wonderful human family. A person who ultimately realized that the basic human need for compassion can't be bound by constructs such as race. I didn't become this person with the intention of simply being the antithesis of what I was. It happened very organically once I became too exhausted to maintain the lies necessary to be a racist.
In November of 2010 I published My Life After Hate, a book reflecting upon my past and the things I have learned.
Today I my life is dedicated to the study and practice of basic human goodness, which is the innate and natural desire to live an open and honest life while treating all other life with compassion and respect. This core truth serves as the foundation for peace as it’s common to every world religion and transcending of ethnicity, nationality, sexuality, and any other sort of difference that seems to sort human beings.