THE FOLLOWING TEXT IS LONG, but whenever you have time ! feel free to read my friend :) It is basically a contrast of what i have been through and what i have realized over the years, a mix of good and bad emotions, it is knowledge and philosophy i have acquired and harnessed and STILL HARNESS till this day :) so therefore i always love to add new elements to this BIO :) , ( i'm trying my best to correct vocabulary and grammar mistakes aswell :D ! ) enjoy your read :) !
BIOGRAPHY : ME AND MUSIC
WELL first of all ! Hey there ! My name is Aaron and I love producing music, I might not be the best at
this, but I do it because I love expressing my emotions through music, especially at night, from around 11:00am to 5:00am : I grab some diet coke, go on my balcony , take my laptop, open my software, look up to the stars and let my imagination flow like water, there's just no other better feeling then this. Why be so depressed when there's a beautiful world all around you :D !...music is there to ease your pain, grab your iPod/Mp3 go outside listen to your music !...man I can't tell you the feeling that you get.Bliss.
Inspired by Romanticism, I think that its rather healthier to spend some time alone then being with a group of people, one must learn how to be alone and not be defined by another person. It is also healthy to gain inspiration from some artists that you admire, in fact it is a key element in my opinion, it enhances your motivation and passion and strives your will to create masterpieces. Most important thing in life being yourself, and that's what I try to portray in each and every song i produce, but also in all of the work i put in.
BIOGRAPHY : WHAT KIND OF MUSIC DO I COMPOSE ? :L
Now some people been asking me, "Onderwish in what specific genre do you compose in " ? Well the answer is simple.
I compose Music, there is no such thing as a a genre in my world because every artist has his own style and genre. All i can say is that i love to experiment with lot of instruments and love being creative in every track. So if you like variety you've come to the right place my friends :)
BIOGRAPHY : PAIN AND DEPRESSION VS. MENTAL WILL POWER & MORE
Find your passion , find a path that you can stick with until the end. Establish a goal and follow it. Remember that you will encounter obstacles on your path. These obstacles are what can i say MERE obstacles...they never move from their respective place...they are like a haystack in the middle of a vast and beautiful plain and so if you are stuck in that situation, feeling depressed, sad...take a moment to reflect upon yourself... solitude is the best friend you'll ever have.
What did i do to conquer depression ? back in the days i was living through some dark times. very obscure and dark depression. it felt like an evil twin was always there feeding on my broken soul. One day i was crying , i went on my balcony for the first time and reflected on my own self, i took my laptop for the first time and started composing ambient music, all i did was record a one shot take, i was vibing on my computer so hard i was crying not of sadness but of pure bliss. i was letting my emotions flow into that very song that i compose that one day...the very first song that i ever composed in my life. All the pain had transferred like a the ghostbusters had absorbed the ghost and accomplished their mission. All the sad pain was gone. and that song remained like a precious talisman for me.
Till this day...i always look back at myself, saying wow...you know ? I've come such a long way out. That was 3 years ago when i was only 13, and now i'm... out here ! making music for people who understand me as a person, what can i say...you know...it is such a good feeling...people don't know sometimes, It feels amazing knowing that people love what you create, especially when you can make a change and influence people in such a sublime way... THAT is the greatest gift you can ever give to an artist :). Ever since i have been supporting depression and been helping many people through these problems. All i did really that day was find who i really was as a person. If you are not able to answer the question of " who i truly am ?" then you are missing something and that is maybe what is blocking you on your path to your goal.
Glad you are still reading to this point :) really means a lot too me, Heres an important little thing i've realized in life regarding a something we all feel , i would like to share with you
Pain is only temporary it may last you for a day, a week, a month or even a year but it is and will always remain temporary, it is you and only you that can control it therefore stay focused and in control and at some point you'll feel pain like a simple punch to the stomach, you'll feel a little pain but nothing that can bring you down, Mistakes will make you stronger ( no pain no gain ) and at the end of the day you'll eventually need to move on but remember...learn from it...analyzing what you did wrong can somehow be life changing for the future, never do the same mistakes twice, go above that obstacle and move on.
Furthermore i would love to clear the topic of depression, because i feel people just don't get the full BRIGHT picture of what it really means, and i will repeat myself again during this process, i have learnt it is the only way for it to stick to your brain sometimes :).
DEPRESSION IS YOU
Depression is the darker side of YOU, Depression IS pain...and i will say it again, and again and again...because i feel it needs more repeating... PAIN is just temporary and negative thinking is your worse enemy....your mind is the most powerful thing you control... and so metaphorically speaking, pain is your evil twin who wants to take over your thoughts...your mind and your body. When people say that depression is a constant battle, it is completely true !......however, people commonly say you can "ONLY COPE WITH IT" , that is entirely false, your nemesis is only a shadow of YOU, therefore he can never take over, YOU as person , because ONLY YOU can be YOU XD ! but it is still a battle to whom will take over during that short period of time, will it be YOU or will it be the REAL YOU ? the more you COPE with it, that means the more you ignore it, the more he'll feed on YOU and it's a never ending chain reaction, that worsens over time, to really fatal extremes. So break the chain quick and clean and move on, as simple as that my friend, FAITH IS ALWAYS THE KEY, if you can tell yourself that, to believe, if you can train your brain to clear of negative thoughts i can tell you, you become mentally AWARE, Mentally CLEVER, therefore you become mentally healthy... and OH...my friend once you get into that positive realm dude... you develop something that is called mental awareness and that my friend is the golden pot....it is simply the most powerful thing a human can ever possess, once you've acquired that skill my friend, your in for a delicious treat, being physically powerful is something we all respect these days UH...being buffed and all, but let me tell you the secret, being mentally powerful, that is something else, it is out of this realm ? this is something that you will carry and cherish for the rest of your life. When you have the capability of knowing that you know something, for instance let's take back our good old friend MR depression because we know we just can't get enough of that old shit :'D !
when people are depressed, 95% of people will melt down within the first 5 seconds without subconsciously knowing that they are depressed, that means they melt down and can't control their pain, wether it is emotions such as , anger or sadness. So therefore if you KNOW that you KNO, that you are depressed, witch by the way i find is the funniest thing to experience, because sometimes i would tend to feel depression and melt or maybe cry a little tear of desperation but yet i tell myself haha, im depressed lol, not that again !!! , and i just burst out a great smile and just put some music and move on that's it ! it's just s great little engine that turns on automatically in my head now, smile when you feel pain ! try it, i dare you to smile ! i love to laugh too sometimes when i feel pain too but thats just me XD. And with mental awareness i have never felt depression or any sort of huge mental pain in 2 years. At the end of this huge big story, depression is not something you should make a huge fuzz about, i'm not asking you to ignore it XD remember that haha !
yeh... i have been , have heard and have witnessed some pretty crad' things in life so for me some little depression won't hurt that much anymore, when you think about it, we make small things sound big most of the time, and we become so stubborn about it...who hasn't felt that right everyone ? everyone has done that. Now with mental awareness, with this mental will power I've acquired, i simply look at it, and then look at "the world" and it's just a little tiny ant sized problem to me, some people live through some real next-gen depression phases witch, i can't do anything, but read about it, and realize that my problem compared to them is nothing. I wish i could help them, but like ALAN WATTS said once : You can never change the world but you can always make a small change seem like a big one to others , witch is the main reason why i do write this to you guys :3 ! sharing knowledge, philosophy and music :D i effin' love it !
Finally, thank you for reading this :D and well enjoy the music i guess :D ! have a lovely day my friends ! AND remember these three words : Mental Will Power, you will never ever see life in the same way :) !
MY LITTLE GOODIEBAG OF QUOTES [ IN THE MAKING ] :)
Let your imagination flow like water - Onderwish
Success is not final, failure is not fatal, it is the courage to continue that counts - Winston Churchill
The only thing you care about when you trying to breathe is to get some fresh air. That's it! And when you get to the point where all you wanna do is be is successful as bad as you wanna breathe then you will be successful. - Eric Thomas
Damn right i loved the life i lived, because i went from negative to positive - Notorious B.I.G
There are some things you are going to see...that are going to make it hard for you to smell in the future - 2pac