Fear is a funny thing, in a way it fascinates me as it brings out some of the most immense inner-workings of people. Someone very dear to me recently brought up the thought of fear being a mechanism working on two levels, one being an indicator of issues we must address within ourselves, and the other being a defense mechanism to ward us away from things that within our subconscious we know are not good for us. On my plain of thought the second there has valid reasoning in certain circumstances, but I'd lean more so towards the first being the more prominent and valid.
When I began working on this track I was faced with the fear of loss. The Universe had brought me face to face with the concept of death and the sadness and acceptance that comes with it. Recently the Universe brought forth this concept once again, through the passing of someone within the wider community I walk amongst. Someone whom although I didn't know particularly well, I had still shared the company of merely a week before she tragically left our Earth. A profound experience to say the least.
Although I had 'completed' and left this track behind some time ago, I had been revisiting it in recent times to get it up to a higher standard of production for live performance, and with this recent passing I felt it appropriate to focus my efforts on it's completion in tribute to the beautiful star that burnt out too quickly.
The title in parenthesis makes reference to the astrological phenomenon at present of Saturn transiting through the sign of Scorpio. Saturn is traditionally seen as being representative of the harder lessons in life, and Scorpio being a sign of great depth and representative of the 'taboo', matters such as fear, death, sexuality, etc. At this point in time we on Earth are coming face to face with some of the darker aspects of our innermost structures, confronting fears and standing tall and strong towards oncoming adversity. From my own perspective, it is a bold statement to the Universe to take us deeper into this journey, on many levels; collectively, personally, and Universally.
The track is all kinds of unfinished but it's at a point where I'm happy to show it's progress. I'm really pleased with the quality of production so far, getting to a point where i'm finally feeling proficient with my creativity and skills. It can only get better and better from here..
Love and fluff,
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Dedicated in loving memory of Jessica Brough. Thank you for blessing me with your presence, I'll never forget the kindness you showed me when I felt more alone and isolated than I had ever known prior. Arohanui!!