I was born deaf in '82. At the age of 3 i had an operation to drain my "glue" ears, i had grommets (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tympanostomy_tube) fitted & all that. But discovered at this point i had only one good ear, the other had failed to develop hairs in the Cochlea (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cochlea). I can't really remember but apparently started to try & talk after this operation after 3 years of no vocal sounds or crying at all (after 4years apparently you lose ability to socialise normally or something), this led to me becoming drained of energy a lot, but i was hyperactive & ran everywhere, little changed there, i believe i was mainly mentally drained, but this push in my early development, helped towards my intelligence levels (that sounds arrogant, but i really don't have to try to understand things, often). I'm not sure how i communicated before this point but i remember being happy & loved. Probably only when i realised i hadn't learnt something major did it stress my development. I still couldn't/can't hear perfectly, i only have one ear therefore no panning (if there was a scream in the woods i would have to to a mental calculation of volume ratios, while moving my head slightly, to lock on & if sound isn't constant this takes me longer than most i believe) & i was hyper/no staying still time, therefore i tended to miss hear things a lot & get corrected a plenty by friends & family for incorrect pronunciation, this all probably helped greatly, but it was annoying i remember, especially when friends did it, but before school i could break down words to read, count to thousands & thousands, so simple math & talk, just about. I was keen on numbers & math & puzzles wer my thing.

I was very visual (maybe from being deaf & grew up running & playing in the woods. I drew a lot, copying images i found i liked, look at an item/picture & recreate, i got quite good, when 1st at school everybody thought i was tracing, i did characters like billy wizzy & buggys bunny/daffy duck. I wanted to be an animator, addicted to cartoons, but growing more so addicted to computers, pestering my friends to play on c64, dancing around & playing while games loaded. I finally got an amiga after being addicted to my friends c64 & paint/animator programs wer soon on the go, doing stick animations. I also got my parents to get me amiga magazines like amiga power/format & fell for the whole genre hook line & sinker, visuals to sounds, got really into the music & found myself going for games with the music i liked, whereas before i wasn't a music fan, i didn't like most of the chart music i didn't really understand or see the point (greedy untalented pisstakers), but i did love to dance & be hyper, i remember early songs i liked wer lambada & jive bunny, i liked the punk ethics tho, spiking my hair a lot to prove this & general behavior problems & authority hating, getting in trouble, kids stuff :)

I have always been, in fair, obsessed with sounds, analyzing everyday, i was tapping things a lot & drumming things. I was addicted to beats, i fell for rave & hard house 1st (i've got the power!!), got a demo tracker program on the amiga (500+[+=1/2 a meg ram upgrade, for the 1/2 a meg already= double!!])& made a few tunes (I remember a sample "Roll the drums,rrrroll the drums!"), liked to make them go fast!. Wanted to learn any instrument i was allowed, played recorder 1st, then trumpet, then guitar, then piano. But most obsessed with computer music, but more playing games until my dad got a pc, when i started secondary school, started to copy notation from guitar that i had just started to learn & put them into noteworthy composer & created my own tunes & compositions also. But really missed that tracker demo i had off the amiga magazine (subconsciously) I was becoming fast addicted to the internet, chat pages todo with music. I got into guitar stuff probably too much to follow the crowd & be liked. Realised i hadn't learnt any theory i concentrate on piano more. Then i go back n forth from guitar to piano but lust for drums. My drum lust led me to fruityloops, i got in there about version 2 i think & i've followed ever since. I got fully into fruityloops by the time leaving school, after not really thinking about what that whole school thing was really about & just not revising & passing exams drunk & stoned. Oh yeh got into bongs & smoking green early. Realised people understand what i'm talking about if they were stoned & liked me more, grew sound friends. Grew hair long. Went to raves & nights out. Being a lover of experimental. Aphex Twin blew my mind. Ventolin was a great inspiration when starting out on fruityloops & squarepushers burnnintree albums. Found venetian snares, bongra, shitmat, wrong music in general, plaid, muziq. Went to dedbeat in norfolk for the 1st 3years & loved it!! Went n saw shitmat quite a bit, loved bogdan real bad. Was getting pretty dam good at tune creation & then when 20 funds ran out & computer died & lots of work & female trouble/deep depression/long hair gone = no music creation but obsessively listening & smoking for about 10years & just got pc again about 1year ago, played on games 1st 6months adding mods to games like obilvion & fallout3 to make them more fun & then realised all that was because i needed creative output to make me happier again, i'm a knob twiddler by heart, always have been, as a child told off too much for picking stuff up & playing/working out. I know if i had time now i could get my mental levels just right & learn/solve any problem/thing. I avoided all social networking things now, as this chatting online is what wasted my time & got me into women trouble in the 1st place, i'm just too much of a target/hot catch, okay dumb. So instead, needing a little but of quality socialness & getting into music so bad&obsessively looking at blogs & downloading new tunes everyday. I found the guys at braindance website, i believe they have welcomed me & i hope to make them all happy with tunes a plenty soon.

Addicted to strange/different sounds and beats a plenty.

2nd podcast here..http://con4m.podomatic.com/
Photos here...http://s873.photobucket.com/home/fo4URm
Site i post at...http://www.braindance.co.uk
Xmas playlist... http://fo4urm.podomatic.com/entry/2010-12-19T02_17_43-08_00

Look out! ...more to come :)